"Consciousness is, in effect, the key to a life examined, for better and for worse, our beginner's permit into knowing all about the hunger, the thirst, the sex, the tears, the laughter, the kicks, the punches, the flow of images we call thought, the feelings, the words, the stories, the beliefs, the music and the poetry, the happiness and the ecstasy. At its simplest and most basic level, consciousness lets us recognize an irresistible urge to stay alive and develop a concern for the self. At its most complex and elaborate level, consciousness helps us develop a concern for other selves and improve the art of life." - Antonio Damasio

My name is Graham (it used to be Avery. I changed it). FtM. 19. I'm half deaf. I am pursuing a dual degree (Deaf Studies/Neuroscience) while on the pre-med track at Boston University. Photos are black and white until you hover. Don't Blink.

lokid-fallen-angel:

castiel-the-pimp:

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You know why we see Dean sleep on his stomach most of the time?

Because he doesn’t want to wake up

and see someone he loves on the ceiling

NO GO TO YOUR ROOM

Anonymousasked
ALL OF THEM.

Hate you. #1-15 were answered in the previous post.

16. Are you going out of town soon?
-Not me personally. I’m going back to Boston for school, but my mom and doggies are moving into my granny’s house in Maryland

17. When was the last time you cried?
-yesterday.

18. Have you ever told someone you loved them?
-yes, and i meant it

19. If you could change your eye color, would you?
-nope! They change among blue, grey, and green

20. Is there a boy who you would do absolutely everything for?
-yup, two actually. Demon and Sabr, my doggies. (their sister Smoki too)

21. Name something you dislike about the day you’re having.
-My mom came home.

22. Is it cute when guys kiss you on your forehead?
-yes, but when people do, not just guys.

23. Are you dating the last person you talked to?
-well not yet, but I’m pretty sure we will be in the future.

24. What are you sitting on right now?
-my recliner couch

25. Does anyone regularly (other than family) tell you they love you?
-my best friends austin, sarah, and jacque

26. Have you ever wanted someone you couldn’t have?
-yeah.

27. Who was the last person you talked to before you went to bed last night?
-Steph

28. Do you get a lot of colds?
-Not if you mean Rhinovirus (the common cold). I get sinus infections all the time though.

29. Where is the shirt you are wearing from?
-I have no idea.

30. Does anyone hate you?
-Ryan Fletcher. It’s mutual.

31. Do you have any empty alcohol bottles hidden somewhere in your room?
-no

32. Do you like watching scary movies?
-If I’m with someone, yeah.

33. Do you want your tongue pierced?
-ow no

34. If you had to delete one year of your life completely, which would it be?
-2008

35. Did you have a dream last night?
-Everyone has dreams every night. but I don’t remember the ones I had last night.

36. When was the last time you told someone you loved them?
-yesterday I told my best friend I loved her. and my mom earlier, but I don’t think that counts.

37. Do you think you’ll be married in 5 years?
-I have no idea.

38. Do you think someone has feelings for you?
-I know someone has feelings for me.

39. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?
-Probably

40. Did you have a good day yesterday?
-ehhhhh. yesterday was rough but last night was incredible.

41. Think back 2 months ago; were you in a relationship?
-nope.

42. In the next 48 hours, will you hang out with a girl?
-nope.

43. Has anyone told you they don’t want to ever lose you?
-yeah, in a friendship sense.

44. What’s the best part about school?
-i love learning, but my friends are the best part I’d say.

45. Do you have any pictures on your Facebook?
-yeah

46. Do you ever pass notes to your friends in school?
-no, i’m in college. I just whisper to them or text them.

47. Do you replay things that have happened in your head?
-yeah, doesn’t everyone?

48. Were you single over the last summer?
-for some of it.

49. Is your life anything like it was two years ago?
-god no

50. What are you supposed to be doing right now?
-nothing in particular

51. Do you hate the last guy you had a conversation with?
-nah, he’s one of my best friends. I’ve known Austin for like, 4 years now I think.

52. Are you nice to everyone?
-mostly, but there are times when I’m not. that’s normal though.

53. Have you ever liked someone you didn’t expect to?
-yes

54. Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months and not cheat?
-absolutely.

55. Are you good at hiding your feelings?
-ha no

56. Do you think you like someone?
-i know I like someone a lot

57. Have you kissed someone whose name starts with a ‘J’?
-nope

58. Do you prefer to be friends with girls or boys?
-i don’t have a set preference. I prefer to be friends with good people.

59. Has anyone of your friends ever seen you cry?
-yes

60. Do you hate anyone?
-ryan fletcher.

61. How’s your heart?
-it’s splendid at the moment

62. Is there something that happened in your past that you hate talking about?
-yes

63. Have you ever cried over a guy?
-over a girl, yes.

64. Who is probably talking a load of crap about you right now?
-no idea, and I don’t really care.

65. Are your toenails painted pink?
-no

66. Will your next kiss be a mistake?
-I’m 99.9% sure it’s going to be with Steph, so no.

67. Girls love it when boyfriends cry; correct?
-Everyone has their own likes and dislikes

68. Have your pants ever fallen down in public?
-yes…..hence why my friend Bubble (Chelsea) and I call Massachusetts Avenue in Boston “Ass Ave”

69. Who was the last person you were on the phone with?
-my mom

70. How do you look right now?
-i just worked out so probably gross but who knows. It depends on who’s looking.

71. Do you have someone you can be your complete self around?
-yes

72. Can you commit to one person?
-absolutely.

73. Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell everything to?
-not of the opposite sex, but of the opposite gender, yes.

74. Have you ever felt replaced?
-yes

75. Did you wake up cranky?
-lawl. I’m always cranky. I was un-cranky when I saw the text from Steph though

76. Are you a jealous person?
-not usually. It depends though

77. Are relationships ever worth it?
-absolutely

78. Anyone you’re giving up on?
-yup.

79. Currently wanting to see anyone?
-ugh yes. Steph.

80. Name something you have to do tomorrow?
-idk clean probably.

81. Last person you cried in front of?
-hm. Jacque probably

82. Is there someone you will never forget?
-yes, a few people.

83. Do you think the person you have feelings for is protective of you?
-to some degree I’m sure

84. If the person you wish to be with were with you, what would you be doing right now?
-100% cuddling

85. Are you over your past?
-I guess I am in general, but not all of it

86. Have you ever liked one of your best friends of the opposite sex?
-yes

87. Is there anyone you can tell EVERYTHING to?
-yes a few people

88. If your first true love knocked on your door with apology and presents, would you accept?
-I mean, they’re one of my good friends so…we’ve already done that whole apologizing thing

89. So, the last person you kissed just happens to arrive at your door at 3AM; do you let them in?
-HA NO.

90. Have you ever liked someone who your friends hated?
-yup.

91. Will you be in a relationship in 2 months?
-ummm. If everything goes how it currently is, I imagine so.

92. Is there anyone you know with the name Michael?
-yeah

93. Have you ever kissed a Matthew?
-nope

94. Were you in a relationship in January? How was it going?
-i was. It was going really well but then ya know, shit happened on her end and I got dumped. It’s all good though :)

95. Were you happy with the person you liked in March?
-no. not at all. no.

96. Don’t tell me lies, is the last person you texted attractive?
-GOD YES. sdkljfjalkdsjfjslkkf

97. Who do you have texts from?
-Well I don’t have any unread ones, but I currently have conversations in my phone with Steph, Jacque, Emily Talley, Bubble, Austin, my biological sperm donor who is not a father at all, my mom, Bridget, Danielle, Sarah Roberts, EJ, Emi, Autumn, Felicia, Alex Hruska, my brother JT, Brooke, Morgan, Mollie, Novak, Rachel, and Maddy.
…..I need to delete a lot of those lmao.

98. If the person you like says they like someone else, what would you say?
-Well it’s her right to like whoever she wants. I would be upset, but I’d tell her that I hope she finds happiness.

99. Have you ever kissed someone older than you?
-yeah

100. Who’s in your profile picture with you?
-the driver’s seat of my car

101. Ever kissed under fireworks?
-lol yeah my first one aka the peck at 12 years old. never an actual one

102. Has anybody ever given you butterflies?
-yes, a good bit of people

1-15 :)

1. Think of the last person who said I love you, do you think they meant it?
 - it was my mom. I suppose she meant it, but she has a big problem with showing it. More importantly, I think she meant that she loves her idea of me, but she doesn’t actually see me. 

2. Would you date an 18-year-old at the age you are now?
 - Well I’m 19, so yeah I would I guess. 

3. When’s the last time you were aggravated and happy at the same time?
 - lol…yesterday morning. The wonderful girl I’m talking to sent me this specific text message, but I fell asleep before I could read it the night before. I woke up to it and I was happy that she sent it, but I was quite aggravated that I fell asleep on it. 

4. Would you ever smile at a stranger?
 - yeah, of course!

5. Is there someone mad because you’re dating/talking to the person you are?
 - nope! All of my friends are incredibly happy that I’m talking to her actually. They think we’re super cute and wonderful :)
6. Have you heard a song that reminds you of someone today?
 -yeah actually. “Whole Lotta You” by A Rocket to the Moon came on today and it reminded me of Steph, the girl I’m talking to. 

7. What exactly are you wearing right now?
 -black basketball shorts and a Florida Gators scrub top

8. How often do you listen to music?
 -pretty much all day, every day.

9. Do you wear jeans or sweats more?
 -sweats by far

10. Do you think your life will change dramatically before 2013?
 -well it’s 2014. so. this is a moot point I’d say.

11. Are you a social or an antisocial person?
 -i’m social but I’m also introverted, and a lot of people don’t understand introversion.

12. Have you ever kissed someone whose name begins with the letter ‘A’?
 -yup.
13. What about ‘R’?
 -lol. yes. richard was my first kiss, albeit a peck. i was 12.

14. Can you drive a stick shift?
 -i understand the concept, so although I’ve never done it, I think I could figure it out rather quickly.

15. Do you care if people talk badly about you?
 -nah, not really. but it also depends on what they say

matthewsagan:

when you’re just about to fall asleep and nature’s like

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niknak79:

Andre is not a happy camper.

niknak79:

Andre is not a happy camper.

    1. Think of the last person who said I love you, do you think they meant it?
    2. Would you date an 18-year-old at the age you are now?
    3. When’s the last time you were aggravated and happy at the same time?
    4. Would you ever smile at a stranger?
    5. Is there someone mad because you’re dating/talking to the person you are?
    6. Have you heard a song that reminds you of someone today?
    7. What exactly are you wearing right now?
    8. How often do you listen to music?
    9. Do you wear jeans or sweats more?
    10. Do you think your life will change dramatically before 2013?
    11. Are you a social or an antisocial person?
    12. Have you ever kissed someone whose name begins with the letter ‘A’?
    13. What about ‘R’?
    14. Can you drive a stick shift?
    15. Do you care if people talk badly about you?
    16. Are you going out of town soon?
    17. When was the last time you cried?
    18. Have you ever told someone you loved them?
    19. If you could change your eye color, would you?
    20. Is there a boy who you would do absolutely everything for?
    21. Name something you dislike about the day you’re having.
    22. Is it cute when guys kiss you on your forehead?
    23. Are you dating the last person you talked to?
    24. What are you sitting on right now?
    25. Does anyone regularly (other than family) tell you they love you?
    26. Have you ever wanted someone you couldn’t have?
    27. Who was the last person you talked to before you went to bed last night?
    28. Do you get a lot of colds?
    29. Where is the shirt you are wearing from?
    30. Does anyone hate you?
    31. Do you have any empty alcohol bottles hidden somewhere in your room?
    32. Do you like watching scary movies?
    33. Do you want your tongue pierced?
    34. If you had to delete one year of your life completely, which would it be?
    35. Did you have a dream last night?
    36. When was the last time you told someone you loved them?
    37. Do you think you’ll be married in 5 years?
    38. Do you think someone has feelings for you?
    39. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?
    40. Did you have a good day yesterday?
    41. Think back 2 months ago; were you in a relationship?
    42. In the next 48 hours, will you hang out with a girl?
    43. Has anyone told you they don’t want to ever lose you?
    44. What’s the best part about school?
    45. Do you have any pictures on your Facebook?
    46. Do you ever pass notes to your friends in school?
    47. Do you replay things that have happened in your head?
    48. Were you single over the last summer?
    49. Is your life anything like it was two years ago?
    50. What are you supposed to be doing right now?
    51. Do you hate the last guy you had a conversation with?
    52. Are you nice to everyone?
    53. Have you ever liked someone you didn’t expect to?
    54. Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months and not cheat?
    55. Are you good at hiding your feelings?
    56. Do you think you like someone?
    57. Have you kissed someone whose name starts with a ‘J’?
    58. Do you prefer to be friends with girls or boys?
    59. Has anyone of your friends ever seen you cry?
    60. Do you hate anyone?
    61. How’s your heart?
    62. Is there something that happened in your past that you hate talking about?
    63. Have you ever cried over a guy?
    64. Who is probably talking a load of crap about you right now?
    65. Are your toenails painted pink?
    66. Will your next kiss be a mistake?
    67. Girls love it when boyfriends cry; correct?
    68. Have your pants ever fallen down in public?
    69. Who was the last person you were on the phone with?
    70. How do you look right now?
    71. Do you have someone you can be your complete self around?
    72. Can you commit to one person?
    73. Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell everything to?
    74. Have you ever felt replaced?
    75. Did you wake up cranky?
    76. Are you a jealous person?
    77. Are relationships ever worth it?
    78. Anyone you’re giving up on?
    79. Currently wanting to see anyone?
    80. Name something you have to do tomorrow?
    81. Last person you cried in front of?
    82. Is there someone you will never forget?
    83. Do you think the person you have feelings for is protective of you?
    84. If the person you wish to be with were with you, what would you be doing right now?
    85. Are you over your past?
    86. Have you ever liked one of your best friends of the opposite sex?
    87. Is there anyone you can tell EVERYTHING to?
    88. If your first true love knocked on your door with apology and presents, would you accept?
    89. So, the last person you kissed just happens to arrive at your door at 3AM; do you let them in?
    90. Have you ever liked someone who your friends hated?
    91. Will you be in a relationship in 2 months?
    92. Is there anyone you know with the name Michael?
    93. Have you ever kissed a Matthew?
    94. Were you in a relationship in January? How was it going?
    95. Were you happy with the person you liked in March?
    96. Don’t tell me lies, is the last person you texted attractive?
    97. Who do you have texts from?
    98. If the person you like says they like someone else, what would you say?
    99. Have you ever kissed someone older than you?
    100. Who’s in your profile picture with you?
    101. Ever kissed under fireworks?
    102. Has anybody ever given you butterflies?

xx092813:

she is my hero

clau-anf:

Run!!!

"Dear future child
If it’s 3am and you find yourself in a world of complete despair
Please do not turn to strangers on the internet for solace as I did
Please climb onto my bed
And I will hold you until the demons sleep
If it is Thursday morning and you are too sad to move
I won’t force you
I will buy ice cream and we will watch your favourite tv show and I will remind you of your importance
If you feel as if you have no purpose
I will remind you that you were created entirely with love and every pain you feel, I feel too
When you’re sure you can’t go on anymore
I will tell you that when I was 21 I searched for peace at the bottom of a vodka bottle chased by a bottle of pain killers
But that five years later
When you were placed in my arms in the delivery room
I realised that you were why I had been holding on
Without realising it, you saved me, do you know how amazing that is?
So if you ever feel like grabbing that vodka bottle, put it down, we will get in the car and I will drive until the sky turns magenta
I will show you how the sun rises every morning to encourage you to rise too
Sweetheart I refuse to be unaware of your sufferings
As my mother was to mine."
—Your mental health is my priority. (via be-fearless-brave-and-kind)

scxmbvg:

BIG DOGS THAT THINK THEY’RE SMALL LAP DOGS ARE MY FAVORITE DOGS IN THE ENTIRE WORLD

insertfandomreference:

only 90s kids can reblog this

"WHY DO THEY ALWAYS SLICE THEIR PALM TO GET BLOOD. do you know how many nerve endings are in your hand?!?! why don’t they ever cut the back of their arm or their leg or something omfg"

me everytime a character in a movie has to get a few drops of their blood for some ritual bullshit  (via jtoday)

WHILE WE’RE AT IT, why do people try to cross those skinny bridges over lava/chasms/whatever by walking upright. IT’S CALLED CENTER OF GRAVITY. get on your hands and knees and crawl across that thing. HUG IT. SCOOT YOUR BUTT ACROSS. “but i look stupid!” lalalala but we’ll avoid that ~dramatic moment~ where you almost fall over and die because your damn fucking self wanted to look COOL

(via jtoday)

and stop yanking IV lines out of your arms the minute you wake up in the hospital 

(via panconkiwi)

That is a broadsword, why are you fencing with it

(via gallifrey-feels)

There is a freaking door right there. Stop smashing through windows, damn it.

(via intheforestofthenight)

yes, mr. action hero, I am aware that running dramatically from the baddies at breakneck speed is important, but know what else is important? NOT GETTING SHOT. RUN IN A FUCKING ZIGZAG PATTERN ON THE OFF CHANCE THAT THE MOOKS WERE NOT COACHED IN MARKSMANSHIP BY THE IMPERIAL STORMTROOPERS.

(via pterriblepterodactyls)

Oh, hey, you there, sneaky hero-type breaking into any place for any reason? WEAR SOME FUCKING GLOVES. They’re called fingerprints, dumbass. You have them and you’re putting them all over the fucking place.

(via dawnpuppet)

If something really fucking huge is falling on you, don’t FUCKING RUN ALONG THE LENGTH JUST TAKE LIKE TWO FUCKING STEPS TO THE SIDE

(via takshammy)

omgswagyolo:

when you’re ready to go out and your plans get cancelled 

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i want a dick. ldsklkjsd;lkjd.

i want a dick. ldsklkjsd;lkjd.

barakatsbestfriend:

at warped tour i was crowd surfing to dear maria and i got near jack, i kept screaming “jack” but his hands were too sweaty and so were mine so he couldn’t help me out of the crowd but right before security helped me out i screamed “jack!” again and he screamed back “ROSE!” to me.